It's the middle of promos! And I'm here blogging. Actually I've been spending a lot of time on the com, studying econs was really a bore.. oh wait, I didn't really study much anyway. So, a few papers have gone by quite quickly, Chem, which was quite okay, Econs- my lucky dip, Chinese, surprisingly got me more confident of A lvls, and GP, the same as usual, the dunno whether pass or fail kind of feeling. Hah, but it doesn't really matter. Everyday, as I read the Bible, the Lord tells me again and again, without fail, to trust in His faithfulness. And it's not just before the exams, or when I'm feeling stressed, He assures me everyday, everytime I read His word. Which makes me look forward to opening that book now. Talking with Him is a pleasure, listening to issues I need to address, and consulting on what I have to do. God's like my interactive GPS system, well, more like a map that can talk, because I don't really trust my dad's gps thingy, but maps are more definite.

Some part of me behind all this exam moods just can't wait for everything to end. There's so much I want to do after promos. Okay, let's not talk about chinese and PW. And I can't wait for choir to start again.. It's carolling! all of you must come and watch us ya? Oh, and I'll be going to Sarawak for OCIP, if I havent said before, which I think I have, but we'll be teaching english to primary school kids, haha, gonna be fun. Well, until then, I'll still be studying, most assuredly.
spoke at : 6:26:00 PM


I've tried 3 different kinds of openings for this post, and they all didn't seem right. and finally, I settled with talking about it. Probably many now would think that I'm fretting over my promos, the things probably dreaded most by JC1s. But somehow, I'm just studying calmly. And for some reason, I don't see the importance of doing well in the exams. Not that I don't want to, any normal human would work towards success. But my studies are just not the main focal point of my life. To me, it's just an avenue for God to work through, so that I can do other things for Him. I've yet to find out what, but I'm sure it'll happen, and I'll just wait, and do well in what I do. I wonder sometimes, if I didn't have God in my life, how would it be? Based on logical and practical deductions, I'll probably be at a loss of what to do, with more than half of my subjects not studied, and counting on luck to do well for econs. It's almost a week to promos, and I'll probably fail. But the wonderful things about God is that He just defies all these logics and maths. And doing well in promos is just such a normal and easy thing to do to me now. I'm amazed even by how much faith I have in Him sometimes, to this point when everything depends on Him. I guess, what can I say? Thank you Lord.
spoke at : 10:52:00 PM


Everyone is insane. At least to some extent. In fact, it is just because we are all different, that's why we regard others as insane. They simply differ in their ways of thinking from us. The more it differs, the weirder they are. For example, I have a friend who thinks that everyone around her is weird. Every single action we do that is not her norm, she'll say we're weird. So the larger the extent we are away from her norm, the weirder we are to her. Thus, we all just regard her as weird herself, born to exist in the wrong world totally. But, if we think about it, aren't we all like her? Sometimes people do things that we think are not normal, so we don't like to be seen around them, are try to hide when they do something we consider "abnormal". But to them, their actions are perfectly sane. They see reason for it and do it. But we have different minds and think in other ways. So we get confused by the actions of others. So what's wrong with my friend then? She simply expresses her thoughts more outwardly than us, because in fact, we probably also call others "weird" too, just that we don't say it. Ultimately, it's just another case of relativity.
spoke at : 9:48:00 PM


Early this year, one of my friends was leaving for NJ, and she told me to stay in AC because she said that God had a purpose for me here. So I just took that and believed so, waiting for Him to call. Many things have happened, changing classes, getting to know more people, joining the choir, and learning so much from it. Going overseas for tour, joining the comm. And now, He has shown me what to do. It just came so clearly, like a flash of light, and I just knew God was speaking to me. When I listened, I realized that everything had happened this whole year was just a part of what God wants me to do in this school. It all just fell into place. Even as much as being a bass was one of the steps to enable me to do His work here. And now I know why I'm here. I want to do it.
spoke at : 8:30:00 PM