If people check a blog frequently for updates, and sees the same thing at the top everyday for 11 days, what would they want to see? It cannot be a narrative sentence, or a thought of mine. It must be something that can be read again and again, provoking thought or sparking interest. I shall think of it soon and post it before I leave on Monday. You won't expect it. I think. I might be able to access the internet anyway.
It's 5 days to tour. I haven't even gone yet, but I know I'm going to enjoy it. Any alternative from school life right now really appeals to me. Then I can come back and study properly for term exams. And then I can finally, finally, go for CF properly in the morning and on Fridays coz choir won't be that tiring anymore. Some part of me wants to enjoy the tour, some wants the holidays feeling satisfied as I catch up on school, some wants school to start again and be able to enjoy it like I did in PAE. School hasn't even ended yet... I'm thinking too far.
When I'm down and disappointed, I talk to Hope. Just sounds so appropriate. She never fails to give me hope again. Maybe that's why she's here.
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9:07:00 PM
I just accepted some heavy responsibilities. It just came so suddenly from a phone call, and without thinking, God probably made me agree. I just said yes, without considering school, cca, or relationships. I now realize what the trial was for. If this came before sunday I probably wouldn't have accepted it. I'm not going to think back, nor regret it. But of course, this would mean many sacrifices. But I think I'll leave promotion to God, He decides in the end, and not what I do well. So I shan't dwell anymore on what I've given up.
I had a rehearsal in the new CPA today, for the official opening of it. The sound was really bad, the walls were decorated with some contemporary modern theme, so the resound was quite bad. Made us sound like hitting a cymbal that couldn't vibrate. But I guess we would strive to work harder to be heard, then when we perform in better conditions we'll be better.
10 more days to tour! Can't wait, doing so much for the choir.
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9:50:00 PM
Played ultimate frisbee this morning during pe. Was trying to catch it when someone else crashed into me, causing my thumb muscle to go limp. I had a GP test today and I couldn't write! So I bandaged it to fix it into place to prevent it from moving, and managed to force myself to write. It still hurts now, ouch.. This is probably one of the rare few times I'm posting about what happened in my life. And it's a minor event, without any 'meaning' behind it. If you've been around here long enough, you would have realized that I never narrate. I really wonder what made me do it today. Oh wait, I guess doing it caused me to type the last 3 sentences, which is probably the philosophy behind the post.
Here's something interesting, I took a personality test in school called the MBTI quite a long time ago. Apparently, I'm a rare guy, of 0.5% in the world. Okay that was just to make me feel good. I'm supposed to be a nice guy, somewhat introverted to people, but extraverted to closer friends, and they are few. I learn better by self-enlightenment, that is, after meditating about an issue for a long time by myself. The opposite would be people who need to discuss stuff and talk about it to internalize. And er, I stick strongly to my values and principles, they're the first priority in my life. Cannot work well in emergencies because I focus too much on the big picture rather than details, so I would feel overwhelmed by the sudden stress. Those were just a few points I find true, there are others but whatever, no one should be that interested in me.
According to the profile, my future job should be- Social worker, Psychologist, Religious- oriented job, teacher.
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10:51:00 PM
You are the peace that guards my heart, my help in time of need.
You are the hope that leads me on, and brings me to my knees.
For there I find You waiting. And there I find release.
I'll worship You with all my heart, I will sing unto You
For You alone Lord, You deserve all glory, and You deserve all my praise.
Father we worship and adore You, we long to see Your face.
For You alone deserve all glory, and all praise.
I realized I really can't bear isolation from God. Thank You Lord, for not prolonging that trial. Thanks for letting me go back to you so quickly.
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10:18:00 PM
JC changes people. I'm feeling quite normal now with tests this week, assignments, especially chinese ones due, project stuff that I'm rushing last minute. And I have CCA on monday, wednesday, thursday, friday, and saturday! What a big change from one day a week last year. If this happened last year I would probably have collapsed due to exhaustion. And I'm even blogging now. Somehow, God makes everything work out in the end, so why bother to be worried about such minor things?
Have been browsing a blogs of some old friends lately, realized that many JC guys have given up their lives(I never said it's a bad thing) and become attached. I really wonder why, maybe I should study sociology, if it's even related.. At least I don't forsake my friends for a particular member of the opposite sex. Like it's even possible for me to do that anyway, haha, with such a lousy timetable, I'm gonna get sick of seeing my classmates from 8-430 everyday. I really don't know how to express my disgust over my timetable. It's like the worst of all the JC1 classes. I still wonder how I was even convinced to take 4 H2s. If you know why, don't tell me, I don't want to be reminded of how my personality of INFJ failed me and caused me to be so easily influenced. Okay, actually I don't regret it. Haa, I was just releasing my hatred for my timetable, feeling much better now.
I wanna see all my old friends soon... Maybe after choir tour.
YES!! I'm going to VIENNA and SLOVAKIA!! haha, okay can't wait to get a break from this life man, seriously.
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8:06:00 PM
I was writing an essay about the aims of education, and happened to use the object of the Boys' Brigade as an example of how education teaches us how to live, not just make a living. That made me think of the 8 years of being a BB boy. Argh!, I miss BB, seriously. Everything about it, rushing to change after school, falling in properly, the p&w, the games, lessons, whatever. I still remember all the target badge test stuff that I memorized. The memories of hiking for who knows how long as a recruit, then doing it again, as a sec 4. I probably contributed to the speed at which the biscuit tins in the bb room emptied, haha. I wish I could go back for once soon. Wanted to join primers at first, but lessons end at 430 everyday and a super crazy cca, I'll be surprised if I even have a choice.
Some things we probably find we enjoy now, as if it were something we wished for that came true. Choir was one thing that happened. I still enjoy it, but it's like a modern type of enjoyment. A new thing. I never thought of BB as something like that before. But thinking of it now, it's like a longing to go back to secondary school where you can mug the day before tests and get full marks, enjoying everyday. Truly, you never know what you've had until you've lost it. I WANT TO GO BACK, SOMEONE INVITE ME BACK QUICK... anyway I haven't collected my O level cert.. haha,.
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10:30:00 PM
If only everyone in the world could enjoy this peace, the joy that surpasses all understanding. It surpasses all understanding not because it sounds really cool, but it just does. It's a state of mind, body, spirit, and soul in their optimum levels. A knowledge of purpose of your life and a sense of security. It is an indescribable feeling of happiness everyday, no matter what happens, nothing can change your mood.
I never read my posts after I've typed them. So forgive me if there are english errors. I find my posts very boring to read again. Every thought I put in here is a result of a lot of thinking and analysis of things that have happened. So it would be quite ridiculous if I were to read the product, when the whole process has already gone through my mind.
I need to do chinese homework. I will do chinese homework. and I will pass chinese this year. Seriously. Poly people I know you're laughing at me. Z. One the the fews things I have to force myself to do.
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8:50:00 PM
