Hm. Today I found out a lot of people visit this blog, just that they don't say it.
Fun-o-Rama was fun.
Of course.. haha...
Who wants a pink AC bear?
Okay, I don't usually post like this but I can't help it. So tired just now I almost sent out an sms saying I'm Joel from base.. For those who don't get it, you're worse.
Bye people...
Jasmine I can't believe you forgot again...
-.-, really. And I mean it...
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11:40:00 PM
Yes!>!>!.. I finally refound my purpose and got back my discipline to study!! Thanks to those people who prayed for me. Now I just need to get well from my flu, heard mass PE is 2.4.
And people! If you're interested or can appreciate music> come to the ACJC choir concert on the 6th July! Tickets can be bought from me at $20, $27 and $32. I assure it will be worth if. Sometimes during choir rehearsals even I feel like stopping and listening to the others, because it's beautiful.. It's on a Sunday night at the Esplanade, tell me if you're interested ya?
Now that I've refreshed my thinking of life, my mind is much clearer. Things that used to bother me, stress me out don't anymore. Somehow, being a Christian and knowing God has a plan for me is not enough. I must continually rediscover that amazing knowledge again and again to keep my motivation at a constant high. I discussed theology and it's principles with AMY in roxy today, and I realized there's a lot more the YPM can be. Many younger youths don't understand why they worship God, or what the Holy Communion is about. Looks like the prayer list will be longer.
~Let's see, I have 50 Chinese phrases to memorize, so bye~
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10:12:00 PM
The choir practice I organised turned out pretty well, then some J2s joined us to help, so we could identify our mistakes.. I realised the basses like working with the sops, because both our sections are so crappy we can totally link. The altos are not bad either, just that they're much more serious than us. Then the funny thing is, we just can't link with the tenors. It's like so weird and quiet if we're practising with them, the basses crap with ourselves, and they are just too stone. Well, at least they sing well, much better than us. Today I also realised how behind the basses are from the rest of the sections. I'll try to memorize karimatanu by tomorrow..- as in I will, haha. I'm starting to like choir more than I thought I would..
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8:31:00 PM
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
I give up. Every time I think of doing so, I feel much happier and lighter. But the presence of longing to keep pursuing still exists, somewhere in there, until I really get over it. I know I haven't really given up, I can't do it spontaneously, but I hope I achieve it soon. It's tiring- on and off, and on and off. I need to enjoy life more and forget about these things. But if things do turn around before it happens, I might consider. But for now, I have better things to do..
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8:29:00 PM
When I was younger, I used to think that wisdom was the ideal understanding that was to be attained. It was a knowledge to me. An enhanced form of knowledge. But that was just one part of it. Wisdom is knowing and applying. It exists in the form of actions. We are wise not when we know what is right and wrong, but when we use our discernment to make the right decisions. Wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure. Because when it is pure, it triggers qualities and actions in our lives, such as being peace-loving. Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God's hand in their lives. The knowledge is primary, but the wanted result. The applied knowledge matters most. If you want to read more, it's in James 3:13-18. The beattitude is from Matthew 5.
I did manage to get into the overseas attachment programme interviews. I really hope it's God's plan for me because I do want to go. Interview is at 5 tomorrow. Was very stressed about it, but now I'm okay. Well ,thank God for bringing me so far anyway. Only 25 from the nation are accepted every year. I need to trust God. And I need to keep reminding myself that too. A few days ago I was extremely tired. Just tired of what was happening around. Interview, academics, results, leadership roles I'm not ready for. And they all came at once. But these sufferings come so that I can realise yet again that I'm helpless without God. Blessed are the poor in spirit, the theirs is the Kingdom of heaven. But when I gave them all to Him, it all became so very clear. I'm sort of at peace now. But them again, I'm still human, I'll be calmer after the interview ends. And if I manage to get some revision done.
The new house is ready! I should be moving in June. Then I can't walk to school anymore.. haha. Choir is getting longer. I hope it's not like that all the time. Still have 71 funfair coupons to sell. This is a desperate plea- please please buy from me, $800 is really impossible.
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10:57:00 PM
I'm tired.
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11:27:00 PM
The future>? Why do people talk about the future? How paradoxically ironic for me, the future, unpredictable yet so confirmed, decided. Life and Death, does it really matter? It does, because I was created for a purpose. The past the present, the future, just stop. There is no word to describe it. Just a feeling, no, not a feeling. It is knowledge. It is a piece of wisdom, an understanding that cannot be explained. But I know it so well. All that said, and I still wish I could see the future, so I know what to do now, what decision to make, what choice to choose. God help me.
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9:54:00 PM
