I realised there's more to life than just myself.. Actually I already knew, but found out again yesterday. I might not be bothered by my results at all, but I'm bothered by the situations of my friends... Some people didn't do so well and are quite upset. But I'm concerned about those who did too well.. Seems like they want to stay in AC, but their parents want them to go to better schools. I'll keep you guys all in prayer, and God will help you choose your path!

Annd I just learned lindy-hop from Elina, Moses, and YunHui today!, yay, it was fun! I managed to learn it surprisingly fast! Looks like I might be dancing again.. but everyone's going overseas!!! I must had complained about that many times already.. haha, put up with me until I get over it..

For every person in this world, God has a plan for you. Trust Him and have faith. Believe that his plan is for a good future and a hope, even though you can't see it now. There is always a way. God did not create us to so that we may suffer.
spoke at : 12:24:00 AM


I guess I'm supposed to have a post about the O level results. Well, thank God so so much. I BEAT MY SISTER!!! Okayy.. haha, it wasn't much of a big deal, but she was like a role model to me, someone who I remembered studying very hard for exams and doing so well. - she got 9. I got 8.
I like the look of my result slip.. haha, it's like AAAAAAAC. So I suppose I know which JC I'm going to already..
To tell the truth, I wasn't bothered by the release of the results. Probably only really wanted to do well for Physics coz I'm taking it as H3 next year, and getting an A2 for it would be rather demoralising.
Seems like Fairfield did well too. First time since the batch of 1992, according to Ms Lim.. Haa.. and my form teacher tried to scare me before I got the results. She was going "Joel, did you study for your O levels?" Too bad I had faith in God's plan, or my reaction would have been more entertaining for her.
So readers, all the best for whatever you're doing in life! And please keep reading my blog which would never have lasted without you guys!
spoke at : 7:46:00 PM


Aw.. choir is 3 times a week.. And my timetable is probably the worst of all the pcme's. I don't get to take lunch on Wednesdays and 3 of 5 days end late..
Actually, choir was not as boring as I thought it would be. Yes, we were singing the whole rehearsal, but somehow, singing gave me a sense of satisfaction. And when I stopped singing and listened to the whole choir, I realised how professional the AC choir was, even with the J1s singing, most with no experience.
I got 14/55 for my gp's general knowledge test -.- Seems like I need to start reading time again. The econs lecturer is a crapper. Literally. If he were my tutor I would fail econs. My sympathies to the classes who got him.
And I know it's the O level results tmr.. Quite hard to forget when your whole day is filled with tutorials that has tutors constantly talking about it.. If you guys wanna know about me, I'm not really feeling anything. But I do care about the results. Just hoping to stay in ac.
spoke at : 9:12:00 PM


What is this feeling indescribable?
Fresh like the early morning sun,
Peaceful like the setting.

Yet it has no sense of time.
It never started, because it was always present.
It does not seem to finish, even after the end has past.

Does it take pity on those is ensnares?
Does it fulfil itself to whom it is bounded to?
Or does it exist just for the sake of bringing painful longing.

The day and night disappears.
There is no more hour or second.
The mind is subdued by it, like a prisoner forever locked in a cage.

Does it ever release?
spoke at : 7:45:00 PM


Matthew 5 - The Beattitudes
They are called the beattitudes because they are forms of mentality that we as Christians should assume, thus called "Be - Attitudes".

"Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the Kingdom of Heaven."
They poor in spirit are those who recognize that they cannot exist alone, thus being poor in spirit. These people realize their need for God, and the Kingdom of Heaven is given to them.

"Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth."
The meek are those who are humble, or the "strong but silent". Being humble enough to not assume you are humble yourself, the earth is his.

"Blessed are the merciful, for they will be shown mercy"
If you show mercy before judgement, God will do the same to you. So do that unto others first, and you will be shown mercy.

Matthew 5:3-11 is probably the part of the Bible that I like the most. So much can be learnt from it.

Anyway, Elina's going off end January! So many people going overseas to study, then Moses will be leaving in Feb. The farewell picnic is on the 25th Jan at botanical gardens, be there!
spoke at : 8:49:00 PM


Guyys!!, stop telling me to quit choir and join dance, it's not just a personal choice but also a path God wants me to take and I'm sure of it, after many prayers. And wasn't my meaning in the previous post clear enough? My personality is not a popular, high profile guy, so I just don't think I'll fit, even if I enjoy what I'm doing. Plus, choir is going overseas to nice places, I enjoy singing and I like the people there...

Now let's get on with the post... great I forgot...
spoke at : 10:50:00 PM


AC, especially, have it's students divided into groups. The first social group is called the DSAs, where these guys have to go for their sports trainings almost everyday, becoz they got in not having to use their prelim results. The second group is the "High Profile" people. There are actually people who get in without any academics, cca, whatever, they just have a lot of resources. You'll probably find them in dance, ya, that kind of ccas. Please, upon reading this, don't consider my previous posts about me joining dance, kind of sort of why I'm not in there now... Then there are the "Mind our own business, care about our friends" group. From my biased view, they're probably the nicest people to be with.
Now why am I typing this.. I've been talking to lots of ex-AC friends, and they've influenced me to think their way. JC is totally a lot more different from sec sch.. The 'family' mood is gone, and things just become cool, we start to divide ourselves more. I really enjoyed orientation, and this 'cool' mood. But hanging out with fairsians again revives the united, bonded, spirit. I kinda miss it sometimes. Thats why every morning, the yellows flock together. My seniors say it happens every year.
Now lets get on with my life, that's what a typical blog is for right? ahaa.. but this is not a typical blog you're reading, so bye!
spoke at : 12:23:00 AM


okay!.. I'm joining choir. Thank God for telling me where to go, I really couldn't decide at all. The only problem about choir is that they train longer on saturdays when competitions are near, then I might be late for ypm.. And it's not just 2 times a week cos there are section trainings too, so I might not be able to join another sports cca.

AC has been maintaining its 'fun' mood so far, even the lectures are so crazy. We bring food to eat, play battleships using handphones. Some of the lecturers are nice too. The physics teacher really does his best to make everything so fun, and the econs lecturer adds a 'ya' to every sentence he finishes. And 90% of the time he's saying something cynical about Malays (he's one), or the government..

SO see ya guys, have fun where ever you are, and join AC!!!
spoke at : 4:19:00 PM


I went for choir auditions, and they were somewhat impressed, I can say. They just told me to go for 2nd auditions. But I would probably not be joining. If I get into dance, which I am quite confident of.. haha.. the instructor was crazy.. like so scary during my audits, plus many people went for it too. Ah, just hope for the best, choir is only if I don't make it into dance.
For now, I'm just enjoying jc life, AC seems to be the most slack, with all the other jcs starting lessons already, mine's next week. Will be quite sad, my OG will be split up coz we're all going to different classes. Basically, the bio and physics people. And even if we take exactly the same combo, we might not be in the same class. So I guess we'll be having more OG outings, which I hope is not just limited to HV and Dover...
spoke at : 12:23:00 AM


Life in JC is really starting to get busy. After the mock and introductory lectures, we're gonna start lessons. And I'm probably gonna be in 3 ccas- Lifeguards, Dance, Christian Fellowship. Lifeguards sounded really fun, and I love swimming, I think. Dance is a passion, and I'll probably give up any other cca for it. I'm not a person who loves dancing, but a person who has to dance, in order to express my emotions. I do feel the most relaxed and natural when dancing. For those who are having weird impressions of me now, it's actually modern dance, the kind that makes you perspire. CF is not much of a cca for me, but I was just looking for a group of people to start the day with in devotions and prayer.
Some people didn't like the way CF did their stuff apparently, so I'm going to check it out first, or maybe just start my own with a few friends.
So here's my subject combi:
Physics, Chemistry, Maths, Economics,
with econs as h1. After today's lectures, I realised how stressful jc is. So many topics to be learnt in 2 years. My orientation group leaders told me at least 30-40 j1's retain every year. Sounded quite scary, but I'm confident, cause I do enjoy all the subjects I'm taking. And I might be taking Physics h3. Either this year as a research project, or next year as a written paper. The research is probably more fun, if I cant actually qualify for it. But my presentation has to be made to physics professors, and j1 would be a mad year. Or I can do the typical 's' paper method: study extra topics and take an exam, which would be next year.
Anyway guys, all the best for this new year and beyond with whatever you're doing in life. Be sure it's something you're passionate about, do not be deterred by opposition or external opinions.
spoke at : 8:46:00 PM


It's been 3 days of orientation in AC, and it's really great, for me, that is. After learning so many mass dances, my dance partner is a nice person :) I feel like joining dance or something.. lol.. probably will. Cheers were unique too, made it more fun since we were divided into clans and groups. Do you know even our orientation has a storyline>?? And a very funny one at that..
We've been playing games, obviously... Today was the dirtiest, and what the Orientation group leaders consider the "most fun". Yeah it was fun, pushing them into the mud. Now someone asked me whether I would change to a better jc if I found out I could. It wasn't that I didn't know, but I guess I shouldn't answer. The best answer now I give you guys is that it depends on something..
To whoever who didn't know what was going on today when I said I was waiting for someone, if you're actually reading this, thanks for visiting my blog. And that was a very good pretence, or you were really ignorant.




The way she speaks makes her sound so honest~
Her presence was good enough for me...



Too bad it's just one-sided misery.
spoke at : 9:46:00 PM


When I realised how few Fairsians there were at AC, I was not surprised. Those who did very well for prelims were the people who wanted to achieve as much as possible. Those who didn't do well went to JJ. The rest are working. So there were less than 20 people from Fairfield in AC today.
Orientation was as usual. Everything an orientation is supposed to be like, it was. But I admit, AC is a really fast JC. Fast meaning not lagging. I felt more belonged to a JC than any other type of institution.

More people are telling me I'm too old for my age. I don't feel offended or anything, but I really wonder why this is so. Maybe I've been mixing too much with the 'old' people in church.

AC should be fun, found someone in my group to talk to.
spoke at : 9:02:00 PM