What would you do if you encountered a beggar on the street? Especially if he is an old man or a very young handicapped kid. We do have the means to help, but where would you draw the line? Whether the beggar is above 70?, or the kid is severely handicapped? What if the handicap were fake? We cant determine. Maybe we should just ignore all of them, since some kind soul is gonna give them money anyway, no point in doing so.

The dilemma arises because we all somewhat feel that we have an obligation to give away some of our hard-earned (if you did) money for charitable reasons. It is this "obligation" which makes us feel bad when we do not give, or uneasy when we do.

In this world, we can choose to share, to make a difference in the lives of the less fortunate. That is where we find meaning in our lives, the satisfaction that we have let that beggar eat for a day, that our relatives can buy a flat to live in because of us. We share because we are happy to do so.

You should feel happy and proud that you can share with someone in need, even if not satisfying all his needs. Give money to the beggar if it makes you happy. Any amount would do. It is not a function of their needs or whether they're faking blindness, but is a function of your well-being. If your wallet is heavy with coins and is uncomfortable, giving them to a beggar makes you happy. Give the optimum amount that will not cause you to feel uneasy, or bad, but make you happier than the beggar.

It is only when we adopt this spirit that we can start to gradually shift to sharing culture - the happiness of sharing. We would be proud to be able to share with others, rather than doing so because we feel obliged.
spoke at : 8:00:00 PM


To give our lives to God, isn't that what we are all about? How difficult that would be, but surprisingly, possible for me, after much thinking through the night. God already has a plan for us, so what we try to do to achieve our desires, goals, if not part of God's plan, will come to naught. Then what's the point of doing so>? I talk to God, and myself everynight about my life, and pray that I make the right choices for every one there is to make. That's such a simple thing to do, trusting what becomes of us to God, and already knowing that it will work out. Just start with your faith.
spoke at : 9:13:00 PM


I made a resolution
To wait
The time that passes
The time to allow realization
The time to resolve

I know I have perhaps a 10% chance of succeeding by this resolve. But better than making her unhappy. What's this success to me then? Just to prove something, to make a realization.
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spoke at : 2:45:00 PM


People worry a lot. I guess I do too, but not a lot. Why worry about stuff that hasn't happened anyway, tomorrow can worry about itself, as from the Bible. My parents and brother are in M'sia for 5 days, packed a week before, frantically ensuring they brought everything. I went to Nepal for 6 days and packed the night before, including getting money, thank God ATMs are 24/7. But I seriously dont get it. Perhaps we worry because we want things in the future to turn out right. But that would be like planning. Planning is good but worrying is unnecessary. Worrying is like, trying to predict what the worse case scenario is and becoming nervous about it.

But of course worrying is where we get our sense of urgency from, right? So its still indisposable. Even if it weren't, I dont see how we can stop worrying..

For church friends wondering, and possibly worrying, Eliza went back to the US to visit grandparents. She will be back in 3 hours time, which I am waiting for.. finally someone to talk to after such a long period of boredom.
spoke at : 1:15:00 AM


I need to feel hardworking, soon.. The lack of which may result in disasterous consequences. Perhaps I just need to think hardworking. Oh look! It's a washing machine!!
spoke at : 11:09:00 PM


I guess I will post about Nepal.. since I have nothing to do now... We took a plane to thailand with the China people, so the plane was actually crowded with us, and our noise that some other person requested to change his seat.. If not, most of us were just playing cards all the way, or playing with cards.. We arrived at Nepal by another plane, to experience the hot airport.. and manually done immigration.

We checked into a hotel, should be 2 starts by my guess.. my room has a noisy air-con and a lamp spoiled,,, plus the water from the shower tasted rusty, toilet bowl couldnt flush properly and bloodstains on the shower curtains.. most of the free time was spent playing cards... again.. and watching joash flinging his yoyo around the room, dismantling parts or the already half destroyed room.

We went to the streets to buy water, and I realised Singapore's tap water is cleaner than their mineral water.. haha, plus I got dared to try the chewing gum.. I dared to, but lets not talk about the consequences.. Next day... look down..vvv

We took a 2 hour bus trip which most people slept in to this place- the school, and the students were waiting for us with flowers, but mostly grass. The flowers were quite troublesome later on, but I managed to sneak it into someone else's pile later on. The opening ceremony displayed the Nepalese's unique english, it wasnt bad.. Just that there were wierd slangs.. some words used even exceeded my vocabulary.

We had a Nepalese lesson in one of the classrooms, which was electricity disabled, click on the image to see the words, we learnt things like good morning, afternoon, thank you, you're welcome.. And after a while I realised they didnt teach us yes and no, but I learnt even for from the local builders I was working with later on.
This is the school, and we slept in tents, the only trip who did so.. most had powder baths.. haha, I just flooded my shirt with deodorant.. dunno whether spelled correctly.. The next fews days saw us working at our jobs.. building of a classroom, painting cleaning, and the computer people who slacked around, though some did help
This was the building team which I was in.. it was actually quite fun, just physically requiring.. Bolio Manche!,, means strong man.. haha
The painting teams did a very good job I think, the sanding of the gates and even painting the ceiling from the second floor. We all thought they were the fastest group, until Mr Ow said the inside of the classrooms were included. The other thing was that see the flag up there^^^? There were some splashes of paint on it afterwards

Mixing of cement, or the making, was really sick, and later we all started calling it by the Nepalese word, wont say it here..

Haa.. I think the teaching group had the most fun, the group who had the opportunity to interact with the students

The last night we had in the school, there was a campfire, the first in all service learning trips, some boys went crazy and started dancing in a crude manner, ask me personally for details.. lol

The last day we had lunch at a "french" restaurant, which was quite normal, then shopping.. This was the part of the trip which got me the most pissed.. I followed the triple science people. At our first shop, a paper gift shop, the girls spent about 40 mins buying stuff, I bacame somewhat depressed after finding out there was a second floor, and the guys had to stay with them for security reasons. I also found out that a 1 GB SD card there was about $50. After that, we went to a pashmina shop and spent another 30 mins, followed by a t-shirt shop, then time was up.. And I found out the other groups had walked 1 round around the whole place, we covered about half of the road outside the hotel..zzz

Throughout the whole trip we had devotions in the morning. But what I really looked forward to was not the devotions in the morning but preparing it with the devotion team at night. They were all quite close friends and practicing for the songs we going to sing was very fun. About 5 guys had our own worship session on the last night.. since girls werent allowed into our rooms, until 12+. I really enjoyed that so thanks to Edmund for organisng it!

The devotions team. My specs were darkening int he mid-light so took them off. Ms Tan was an extremely good teacher, I later founf out that I knew her dad, from my church I think..

A few of us received updates from the other service learnings during the trip from mr ow. To China-- I heard you didnt complete much, but nevermind.. haha, Vietnam -- I think that you who owned up was courageous, and I'm quite sure the teachers appreciated it. To Cambodia-- get well soon guys!! And mdm toh too.. haha

spoke at : 8:18:00 PM


I was undecided
The choices staring at me
Wondering about her
Until she told me Nepal

Some ask why I lie
Lie about why I say I don't like anyone
I don't lie
As far as my perception is concerned
"Like" is too mild a word
Too mild to describe my emotions fully
Too mild to show my concern
Too mild to show my protection
Too mild to show my heart

Why did I follow her
Why watch her while other guys became interested
Themselves inducing interest
Why the absence of action
Some ask

I do not feel the infactuation
Not like I did before
Not the lack of dare to talk
Not the lack of courage to joke
She was like a friend
I do not criticize those who get mesmerized
Mesmerized by her overfriendlyness
As I was warned before
Like I'm warning now

I want to watch
I want to care
I want to protect
I want to love
Although returned is oblivion and ignorance

Some ask why I talk
Talk about love so simply
Talk about love like it were just anything
I don't talk
Not about it, no
As far as my emotions are concerned
"Talk" doesn't apply
And love isn't anything

She can use her six senses to realize
If only them others didn't block
Block these complicated twines of love from me
Love is not simple
Like others say
But no, I do not blame them

The Nepalese school principal told
Told us that we do not love with our hearts
Told us that we love with our minds
Told us that we think to love
Told us that we think to show concern
Told us that we think to give protection
Told us that we think to love
But I do not agree

He talks about our physical heart
Says that all the heart does is pump blood
Then my heart is different from his
My heart concerns
My heart protects
My heart loves
I do not agree
spoke at : 8:08:00 PM